The Who Behind Blue Eyes.

The Who - Behind Blue Eyes.

Got a few listens out of this.

I actually quoted this song in my September 11th phone calls.  I thought that I had created it.  Must of been from my early child hood.  Pretty cool words to remember if you ask me.  I also did this with the song Deliver Me.  I quoted that in my phone calls so thought I had created it as well.  The limp biskit cover with the Discover part I did the discover thing as well in my phone calls similar to the song.

Here are the lyrics to Behind Blue Eyes:


No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through



I quoted all of the above with pretty good accuracy.  Here's the rest of the lyrics anyhow.



But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

"At The Bottom". Longecity.com Thread.

I posted this yesterday in my At The Bottom Thread on Longecity.com and am adding it now.  This actually came before in the thread than the post I made to this site just before down below.  So thread order was this post was yesterday the 3rd of June and the post below was written and appeared in the thread today the 4th of June.  This is an older post to the thread than the post made below.


HERE IS THE POST MADE TO THE THREAD:



1117 views as of todays date. This thread began on January 29th 2014.  Not much has happened.  I have moved and managed to find a new flat paying the same weekly rent as the old flat.  I am comfortable I guess but still poor.

By owning my own house mortgage free and just paying rates and insurances it should be half the cost of rent that I pay at the moment.  And if I have a granny flat that's able to be rented out then it will provide an additional $100-$150 in money as well.

This xtra income would immediately enable me to double my spending on food and give me a little savings as well. At the moment I'm pretty much a one meal a day guy unless it's payday then I have a little bit more to eat.

So this is my ultimate goal and plan to own my own house with a granny flat mortgage free.  This would set me up for life as I basically have a guaranteed income from the Govt for the remainder of my life and I never have to work.  I just need a little extra income to feed myself and save money for new computer, 60" TV and push bike etc etc and could do these things at just $40 bucks a week saving which is a couple grand a year but with a granny flat I would probably have even more to save.

No one will ever employ me.  I haven't worked for 15 years now so this is why.  I have lots of time though. This time can be devoted to a social internet life.  I run a website and post on about 2-3 other large forums other than this one.  I

l play World of Warcraft but can only afford one more month of time at US $15 a month. This is all the money I have left over from earnings from the Diablo 3 Auction House when you could make money selling gear from that.  I made about $600 US over about 6 months.  I'm hoping my mum will pay for Warlords of Dranei the next World of Warcraft expansion due out in the next 6 months and like 3 months time that should be enough for me to of had enough.  I've been playing WOW since September 2007.  I stopped playing shortly after the cataclysm xpac and have only just recently a few months ago got Mists of Pandaria xpac when it was on sale for NZ $20 dollars.  I have got about 250 days played across all my characters.  I have a 90 Druid, 90 Mage, 90 Pally, 83 Hunter, 80 Rogue, 80 Death Knight, All ally, also, 90 Priest, 50 Monk, 44 Lock, all horde,  These char are all on the same server.  I am starting a shaman who is 19 at moment on a completely different server.  The shaman is going to be my free level 90 boost that you get with Warlords of Dranei.  I'm going to level him to level 60 so I get free profession boosts to 600.  I actually started to level the horde monk with this intention and then realised it would be a lot better to start a character on a new server so I could be rich on that server as well.  I am already quite rich on both horde and ally side on my current server.  Recently I have been trading in pets.  Made a little bit of gold out of them.  Best I did was trade two pets that cost me 2k for another pet that I sold and got 7600 gold after fees had gone out so 5600g profit.  Cool.  I did level the pet to 25 so that did make it worth a bit more but that didn't take long.

I talk about WOW because it has taken up alot of my time of the last few years.  It's what i've been doing.

I have been a member of this forum since August 2006 and have been a member to the other forums I post on for about the same time so that's around eight years.

Anyway thanks for reading.  I'm really after a house that someone who is extremely wealthy can buy me.  I'm using the internet to achieve this.  Again thanks for reading.

Leeda.




That's the end of that particular post.  Here is another shorter post I made to the same thread just before. Science rules.  THREAD:



My Suffering > (Greater Than) Price Of A House.

It's science based when I say I have earned a house through suffering.  This is science based.  Backed with real tangible evidence and scientific knowledge.

Those who say I should get out and work and get a job.  I have done the work.  It was condensed in suffering.   The most extreme.

So Science backs me when I say I need a house under certain conditions.  I have suffered for this house.  It has been earned.  I have earnt it.  It has been paid in full.  This is pure truth and science.

Unrefutable.



Where is my house?  PLS.




That's the end of both posts.  Another great wall of text with no images.  Enjoy reading.

Darcy Lee
Leeda

Thread I Post In, On Immortality Forum, Longecity.com

I made this post to the longecity.com forum which is an immortality forum.  You can find the thread HERE.  It's quite a long post.  I'm asking for a rich person to buy me a house on the forum.  One of the few forums that has let me post such a thing.  It has about 1100 views in 5 months.  So far it hasn't been deleted which is cool and the forum doesn't see many new threads or posts so my thread stays relative to the top.




Ahow bananas THIS IS THE POST FROM THE THREAD ENTITLED "AT THE BOTTOM" :




You would find it very hard to find someone who's suffered more in their life than me.  Maybe 10 people on the planet.

I have found that there is quite an adversary for people who want to live forever.  People joke about it like it's never going to happen.  There is definitely a fight against certain people who don't want to live forever and we are made a joke of.

I'm sure the Governments of the world are working on immortality and life extension but there are us who can take care of the little things.  We need numbers I think on this one to solve for immortality.  Soon our brains are going to be wired to a matrix type computer brain interface.  It's possible that everybody has a part to play with this sort of technology involved.  Everyone has weights and burdens in life.  Through manipulating our thoughts with computers this is the most likely answer that will lead to immortality.  I say this because the technology exists now in secret form.  The ability to put an image into the brain mind eyes now exists. The ability to interface with dreams exists.  Mind control exists.  They are not afraid to keep it secret and use it on whoever they want to.

Now this sounds weird perhaps.  I am never believed.  The Matrix movie came out in 1999.  This is how long they have been working on this technology day and night.  Thats like 16 years.  Also the concept existed way before the movies came out.  If you think they haven't done this yet then your stupid and old and naive and blind and misinformed also uneducated.  They can now put an image picture video in your brain mind eyes.

This type of tech is going to go along way towards the solve of immortality.  It's being hidden at the moment.  Because they want to do evil with it and use it against innocence.  This is a kind of power trip they have going over people.  They think they are superhuman and above everyone else.

I hope they are thrown out.

I really dislike this tech even though it has great potential.  While it is secret it can be abused and no one complaining will be believed and treated like a mental health patient. I tell you it's been 16 years since the matrix came out.  How hard to you think it can be.

Already the power exists to monitor every living individuals thoughts.  I have been monitored since I was a kid I remember the first time.  I would've been like 8 or 9.  I'm now 36.  This is how long they have been monitoring people.  They keep us in the dark for this long to take advantage of us.  They purposely blind us through media and movies.  No body thinks it possible.  That's why they get away with it.

I don't want my thoughts listened to.  There should be laws against it.  I haven't done anything wrong to be subjected the way I have been.

And yes these people are the ones responsible for my top 10 suffering on the planet.  The laws that govern us are corrupt.  We need to fight them.  They use mental health as a weapon to discredit and discriminate. The laws that say my mind can be read without my permission are wrong unless I am accused of murder or something or I willingly submit.

And Yes you will get a return one day on your investment in me.  Maybe your kids maybe your grand kids but you will get a return.  I really need a house to live in.

Here is a scripture for you:
Luke 6:34  And if you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even sinners lend to sinners, expecting to be repaid in full.

This scripture teaches a rather different teaching than what the world teachs.  But it is saying you will get credit for giving me a house and this credit has to be valuable perhaps.  I'm looking for a rich person who can actually afford a couple 100k without bankrupting or putting themselves out of any comfort.

I like the bible cause it teaches about immortality and hopes for it and also Jesus suffered heaps so we share that in common.  But as far as believing in Jesus Christ and christianity I got to say that I don't believe but I do like quoting the bible and will attempt to pick and choose all the good stuff from it.

The bible has become like a Tolkien epic to me.   I was hoping that the bible came with super powers but it appears tech has beaten out any chance the bible ever had.  I will say that I will continue to try and find the truth even if that leads to the bible and Jesus but I am relatively over looking for any help from that source . The bible has had 2000 years to prove itself and hasn't produced much.  I'll still cheer for it.  But it seems lost.  I'm pretty sure God's not real.  He's never helped me anyway or others that I know.

I guess if you buy me a house you get credit from God according to the scripture I quoted earlier.  But God's not real so that doesn't really work and nobody will buy into that.

So according to the scripture I quoted, the credit that you would get for buying me a house and not expecting repayment is that any good to anyone?

Looking for a holy righteous rich god believing man to set me up for immortality.  See not even a Christian will help me.  I guess Christians are all poor, not just financially.

I'm going to keep making some noise on the internet as I have done for the last 9 years that i've been flatting.

Not many people notice me and I take much abuse.  But that is the nature of the Internet.

Anyways Pls buy me a house from your wealth and not someone who's poor but generous, but someone who's rich and generous.

I am deserving.  I am awesome charity.

You could not find a better place to spend your excess of money.

I guess a Christian won't buy me a house cause I said I don't believe in God.  That's not love kindness or forgiveness.

If love has any play in this then I need a mortgage free house that I own myself to live in.

I guess LOVE can fail.

Haven't had much luck with love.  Been suffering to much to enjoy the pleasures of this world if that's what love is.  Love is possibly essential for immortality.
Otherwise you just have slavery and no one will have freedom.  But what is love?

Love would be giving me a free house.  Most people would agree this would be love and not some other motivation that you have especially after what you have just read.  Love is a good thing to strive for.  If believed it is the highest power.

That's why it's so hard for me to get a house.  SO few PEOPLE love.  Evil comes naturally to most as it's all they are familiar with.

With the internet now it is possible for me to work.

Employ me.  Buy me a house and give me free reign for the rest of my life.

Will Love, Charity and Kindness Come Through?  Watch This Thread.

Talking biblically.  I should have a house. Rich Churches and Christians notice me.  You owe me a house.

Talking To scientists.  I should have a house.  As much as I have suffered.  My suffering inherits me a house.

Now where is my house pls.

Leeda
Darcy Lee






That was the forum post.  Sorry for no pictures.  I thought it would be ok to present a wall of text.  Nobody reads my stuff anyway.  And I write poorly I believe in most cases anyhow.  I've seen much better writing skills. I've also seen people who can't write and read.  So yeah i'm way more advanced than them.  Just saying it doesn't mean much how good you write.  Google never picks up my text and gives it traffic even if I was a good writer.

This has been a long post.  Goodbye.

Darcy Lee




EDIT:

I was going to add a post I made yesterday to the same "At The Bottom" thread on longecity site but i'm now going to do that in a new post on this site.

When Will The Bass Drop.

When Will The Bass Drop - Lonely Island.

Found this humorous and catchy enough to add it even if it is quite short.

Avicii Lay Me Down.

Avicii - Lay Me Down.

Just discovered this before.  On about the 4th or 5th play so far.  Adding it for the chorus.  It's pretty catchy I quite like this song at the moment.  I'm a fan of Avicii that's why I checked it out.

Laura Story Blessings.

Laura Story - Blessings

This is kind of a sad song I find.  It's very Christian and Jesus.  I did get a few listens out of it though.

It's obviously very hard to believe in Jesus with so many people saying no.  The world pushes Jesus away.

I'm kind of ashamed of my belief in Jesus in the fact that I don't really believe in him.  There's a scripture saying.....  Luke 9:26   Whoever is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of them when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels.  And also..... Matthew 10:33 But whoever disowns me before others, I will disown before my Father in heaven.

I kinda love Jesus words but I can't see after 2000 years and the way technology is that Jesus is going to have an impact in the future.  It's possible there will always be believers in Jesus through the entire history.  I find it ever so hard to believe in Jesus and find that he's mostly a myth.  He probably did indeed suffer though so that's a pretty hard thing to do.  He deserves his church.  Isn't it hard to believe in his resurrection from the dead?  This is like a key point of Christianity.  Yet I find myself not believing.

The bible is just so hard to believe in.  Jesus is just as hard but I like what he says.  There is no evidence for his RES or his miracles.  I do like the fact that people gather once a week even if they are praising Jesus and worshipping.  At least there being social and making friends and communicating ideas and efficiencies. Proverbs 27:17 As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another.  The gathering is vital.  It's generally wholesome even if a little crazy from it's base.  I believe it does nothing but good unless they are strict and unlike children possibly.  Just the people interacting and talking and there can be quite alot of people.

John 8:32 The Truth Shall Make You Free.  If I was to know the truth about Jesus Christ and the bible I would have a heavy burden lifted off my shoulders.  It is a puzzle I have tried to solve for a long time.  I think I am at the point of not believing.  It is endless and neverending.  Maybe if I knew what I know now back when I was like 10 years old or something I could solve it with the endless energy I had back then and the much greater mind capacity.  But now I find I am much to dumb and deceived.  I would dearly love to know the truth.

I find I don't want to goto church.  It's to early in the morning for me and their beliefs are different from mine. The bible says not to forsake the gathering. I guess as a non believer this doesn't apply to me. It's unfortunate that I don't know the truth. I am definitely not free.

I need a demonstration of Spirit and Power.  Never seen one.  Who wouldn't believe these days.  So much lacking in todays Christianity.  How can they be happy with what they have even though they are taught to be content with what they have.  I'm pretty sure they don't have Jesus either or the truth.

Perhaps I love money?  Maybe this is my fault?  I need money I find.  To buy food and pay bills.  I also find there is always a shortage of money.  I could always use more money.  I do desire to be rich.  But this is because the opportunity has been within reach.  I would of had many other things to occupy myself the last few years if money wasn't in reach.  But I always seem to be just grasping at it and it's always out of reach never to land.  I hope one day to be wealthy.  But it's taken it's toll.  I don't need much.  Hebrews 13:5   Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have,

I would like a demonstration of spirit and power.  I certainly can't demonstrate such a thing.  I have never seen a demonstration. Nobody is able I guess and this frustrates me a hell of alot.

Christians need to go hard and solve some of these issues.  If they know God why can't others like myself. But I don't really see Christians as knowing God either.  God is hidden.  We are in darkness and people perish from a lack of knowledge.

This has been alot to add to this video but owell.  This is where i'm at with Christianity.

Darcy Lee

Aphex Twin Window Licker.

Apex Twin - Window Licker.  Adding this cause I used to listen to it back it the day like 2006ish maybe. This was before I was adding music videos to this site.  I had the song in mp3 on my computer.  A bit of a warning there is lots of swearing in the beginning of video.

Imogen Heap Hide And Seek.

Imogen Heap - Hide And Seek.

On second listen as I type this.  Thought the end of this song was pretty cool that's why i'm adding it.  The effect is kind of cool to.  Oom What you say.  The Lonely Island song - The Shooting AKA Dear Sister got me onto this and the song below as well.

Trance 009 Sound System Dreamscape

Trance - 009 Sound System Dreamscape  Dont know exactly what this song is called.  Think i've heard it a couple times round.  Adding it after only listening to it twice but probably wont get many more plays out of it. But it's ok.

Photos of 13 Fleet Street My Old House.

Here are some photos of my old house.  I have been flatting by myself for 8 years 6 months now.  I lived at 188a Chapel Street Masterton for about 5 years 8 months and I lived at 13 Fleet Street Masterton for about 2 years 8 Months or so. These numbers might not be exact as I can't be bothered looking up the dates and calculating. Anyhow here are photos of my old house.

Adele Rolling In The Deep.

Adele - Rolling In The Deep.

This song just passed 500 million views on You Tube.  One of the Adele songs I didn't like first play but liked it second and another I thought was boring but then near the end it gave me a real rush when it got going that was neat.

Darcy Lee

Adele Someone Like You

Adele - Someone Like You.

Listened to this for a little while.  Been meaning to add post it for a little while but i've been busy playing World of Warcraft.

No One Will Snatch Them Out Of My Hand.

John 10:27-29  27"My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me; 28and I give eternal life to them, and they will never perish; and no one will snatch them out of My hand. 29"My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of the Father's hand.

I have this memory at primary school.  It's from such a long time ago. I was very young. I can't really remember the truth.  I remember a kid snatching something out of my hand.  

If your talking Psy then it was like I was controlling people who I suppose could be sheep with my hands they were doing tasks and being rewarded or they were doing missions of discovery Psy.  I can't remember accurately. All I remember is demonstrating this to like 2-3 other kids and that a kid tried to snatch them out of my hand.  This is what he spoke.  

It was kind of like there was a link between me and certain others that matched me and they were kept in my hand.  Psy.

It's kind of like I wondered why he didn't goto the effort of starting his own rather than snatching mine.  I think mine in my hand were only slightly built up but that is the advantage.  This is about all I can explain.  I think by showing others I was teaching.  It's so hazy now.  I can't remember exactly what I demonstrated that got snatched only something like it was a link to other people contained in my hands maybe fingers.  I remember sending a person out and it was like they went right to the end of something and then back again completing something.  It made you stronger or more complete or there was some type of reward.  

I wanted to write this memory down.  It's so fuzzy now that it's not very good.  But basically the kid said he snatched the things out of my out hand Psy kind of exactly like described in the scripture at top.

If only I could remember what I demonstrated better.

I'm also going to post this exact post on ATS but it was posted here first this time.

Thanks for reading this fuzzy memory.

Leeda.

Darcy Lee

Moving Time. 26th April 2014.

So I moved again on Saturday the 26th of April 2014 Anzac Weekend.  I was living at 13 Fleet Masterton. I totally forgot to take pictures damn it all.  The house is empty now.  My family helped the move and my brother had a small truck and we also had a car and trailer.  We did everything in one load pretty much.  I had been ferrying stuff on my scooter for a couple days so it was only the big stuff left. The photo is my bedroom of Fleet but it was arranged much differently when I moved out with the bed against the wall where the couch is.  The computer case was still in exactly the same position.  You can see two boulder tvs in the picture as well.  They both got thrown out and went smash at the dump.  I dumped a whole lot of stuff.

I'm all set up now and Internet and phone were turned on about 3pm on Monday.  I watched a couple movies while I had no internet.  I saw "Now You See Me" with Woody Harrelson.  I liked that movie but it was not very realistic.  I also watched "2 Guns" this was more of an action movie.  Not as good as Now You See Me.  I also watched "Gravity" though I was saddened about George Clooneys character.

The landlord is coming round tomorrow with a couple papers to sign.  I hate landlords.  I really wish for some privacy which means owning my own home.  But it's not real to think I can ever have a house unless I receive massive charity from the Internet or unless my song cameos kick in or my September 11th 2001 phone call gets put up on YouTube.  But none of this is likely to happen for a long time if ever in my life time.

Anyhow enough said for today.  It's 3.19am and i'm going to bed.

Night.

Leeda.

Need More Insults and Denials so I Look Good in the Future.

Hi.  I posted the below in a thread on ATS just now that I started a while back and am posting it here.  This post is on page 3 of the thread.  I am promoting pretty much what I promote on this webpage that is I am a rockstar cameoing in the lyrics of heaps of modern day songs and that VR tech the ability to put a picture in your head brain mind eyes exists.  My threads oneday will become famous and people and their attitudes and positions will be seen in a much different light by many people.



Hello. Your doing great. You look good. I find your questions irritating. They are kind of strawman and pick at my words semantically.

I stand by what I said. You obviously don't believe what I say. I still need further questions and opinions in this thread. I'm not sure how I can ghet many more people to post.

People need to read what I have written and post in response so they are seen. My threads will be famous one day but it looks like it will be a long time in the future possibly 30 years or more. I'm going to keep posting on this site to attract attention until people believe me as I have 30 years like a jail term.

As I speak the truth it's hard to sway from it as that means lying. Sure I lie in everyday but about the music and tech I am not lying nor am I delusional. It's pretty hard to find someone who doesn't lie or isn't deceived please .

I have no proof. It comes back to this. My testimony gets me counted as crazy and it gets discounted.

If I had enough followers I could probably possibly achieve escape velocity but I am not hard working enough. I have no motivation.

Please post in this thread your thoughts and opinions about what I have written.

I will be famous and my words will attract people for good or bad. But this could be 30 years probably less.

I will keep working in the time I have left.

If the truth will set us free nobody has the truth. Not me or not you. I'm waiting on the truth. That's how many different truths there are. What I believe is not the truth relative to say immortality and the truth that immortality requires. I see immortality as an answer to things. The truth about the songs and technology will create something..... big and long lasting. I'm pushing for immortality but i'm afraid I might of missed this by the world not knowing and me blowing my opportunity in 2009 to reveal both the music and technology. It certainly would be easier to push for immortality with the world using the technology I was to reveal.

From my house with a phone call and phone calls I have altered the course of Rock History and the History of the world. The world is different on a large and very big scale because of my life, though it's not recognised but oneday it will be and you should be ready.

If death is the final enemy then let us attack death first. Start at death and work towards immortality.

I seek vengeance over death which is life. I hope to also rally support for immortality, people to fight a war.

Immortality is not far form here.

I am hidden inunder rock.

Leeda


End of thread posted on ATS.

Feelin' Myself Will.i.am Ft Miley Cyrus.

Feelin' Myself - Will.i.am Ft Miley Cyrus, Wiz Khalifa, French Montana.

Found this last night. I like Will. Not really a fan of Miley but she does ok in this.  Don't really like Mileys hair.

#Selfie The Chainsmokers.

#Selfie - The Chainsmokers.

Some people hate this song I find it quite catchy, I like the beats.  I found this yesterday I think or maybe a couple nights ago but today it has been replaced by I need your love by Ellie Goulding.  I'm definitely coming back to Selfie for a a few more listens though.

I need Your Love Ellie Goulding.

I need Your Love -  Ellie Goulding.

Found this last nite and have been listening all day.  I like songs about love.

A Perfect Circle 3 Libras.

A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras.

This is an old favourite.  I remember listening to this when I still had dial up.  I've only played it about 4-5 times at the moment but should get a few more plays out of it.

Why Don't Christians Have Powers?

This is another post I made to Abovetopsecret.com  The post is called  "How Come Christians Can't Do Spiritual Powers Miracles Signs Like Jesus Christ."  At the time of this post the thread has 36 posts and four flags.  This has been quite a popular thread for me.  Most of my threads die out before 20 posts.  But saying that I didn't get many flags of stars. Flags u get from other users for starting the thread.  They give the thread a flag if they like it and think it's important.  Stars u get for individual posts pretty much the same as flags but for everyone not just the thread starter.  Anyones post can be rated by stars.  Anyway here is the topic:



Mark 16:17-18 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”

The main power here is curing sick people. I would like to see people curing people. I think there is a lot of truth lacking. How sick can a person be and get well with someone placing their hands on them. It's not working. Priests go to hospitals to talk to the sick but the sick don't get better.

What are your suggestions for why it's not working? Maybe everyone is a sinner and there isn't even a single true believer alive yet. Perhaps we are waiting for the first believer.

If one person learned how to do it learned the truth he could teach others. But at the moment the world is stuck. The power is not working.

Lets take a head count? Who here can place there hands on someone and heal them? Is it such a bad thing to practice? Prayer seems to have failed as well.

If death is the enemy death is kicking ass. Will knowledge defeat death? What is your answer. I would take a Christian anyday over someone who doesn't even want to fight death and is happy to just die. Christians are at least active in the battle against death. They see death as an enemy. This is correct.

Immortality is definitely something to desire. A pain free struggle free tear free existence would be wonderful and that's exactly how I imagine Eternal Life.

But I also imagine Eternal Life with powers. Like the ability to walk on water or feed 5000 from a couple loaves of bread. Turn water into wine. And also to do greater things than these.

What is your definition of talking in new tongues?

Could there be a science to the laying on of hands? Perhaps the power is a responsibility. What is the key to unlocking the mystery of curing the sick by the laying of on hands. I know it's practised but it doesn't work at the moment.

I'm not sure I believe in Demons but I know that many people get pleasure out of doing evil to others and live as friends of death. There is plenty and much evil in the world. People can be very evil and I simply don't know what the answer is.

I'm sorry for boring you. I live in a fantasy world where we should all have powers and there shouldn't be any death or evil. I would like to see powers established in this world.

I guess so many have tried and failed and so many say it's impossible that there's not much point in thinking about it. My hope wains.

What do you think. Lots of people claim to have powers of some type but generally they don't and they are liars or delusional or small in mind.

What does a well built house consist of? Is it just enough to get to 80 and then die. This is a mystery. It's pretty difficult to get to 80 years of age. If your sick your generally suffering. I would like to see this suffering become a thing of the the past.

Even in the huge church gatherings where there's like 20k people no one actually gets healed. We all copy each other. Perhaps this is the problem. We copy someone who doesn't know what they are doing.

How does the laying on of hands actually work? Does it require words or prayer? Give your instructions on how to lay your hands on someone and heal them.

I mean how hard can it be. You put your hands on someone and hey presto. Yep nope. Guess it doesn't work.

I guess I have to move my beliefs about Jesus beliefs into the either to hard or don't believe basket. It's kind of like a myth or legend the bible so hard to believe. I'm pretty sure Jesus existed and that he was crucified and died a horrible death. But the resurrection is pretty tough to believe in.

Jesus is the owner of the church.

Acts 4:12 Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.

Jesus Christ has had 2000 years and hasn't produced many results. Who believes in the above scripture. Perhaps you can explain your belief in it.

Many people call on the name of Jesus Christ. I would like to see results.

I mean the church is massive. It has heaps of different branches and millions of members. But it's not working. People go every Sunday but no power is produced.

I guess I don't believe in Jesus. I'm sorry that I don't. I can believe in powers which means I can believe Jesus had them. But I have no powers myself.

I desire immortality and heaven. There is no evidence for Jesus other than people with no power.

If you do the things that Jesus did then you would be famous instantly. Knowledge of the lord would fill the whole earth.

Show me the Love. I don't sense any love. It's so very hard to see love in this darkness. Do you have any love for me?

What are your opinions. How far away are we from having powers? I guess science and tech will be the answer.

What abilities do you have? If you had powers the Govt would snaffle you right quick.

Am I dreaming about powers? What sort of power is love?

Sorry again for boring you.

Answer yourself.



Leeda


That's the end.  You can find the thread here http://www.abovetopsecret.com/forum/thread1008229/pg1 and read the replies.  I post under the name Leeda.  If you go to ATS and click my name it will show you all the threads I have authored over the last few years.

Thanks for reading

Darcy Lee

Bullet For Your Gun Black River Drive.

Black River Drive - Bullet For Your Gun.

Subsisted on this for a few days.  I like the lines where it says

So let us pray,
He is the truth and way,
Starting to wear thin now.
Starting to see just how it really is.

This is actually one of my songs I think that I cameo in as well.  I kind of remember saying I am not a bullet for your gun and also can't stop the cuts that bleed and possibly another line from the chorus as well.  I set the tone of this song.

Lights Ellie Goulding Cover Ft Matt and Eric.

Lights - Ellie Goulding Cover Ft Matt and Eric.

Like this almost better than the original though I haven't listened to it much yet and it does have it's flaws.

Lights Ellie Goulding

Lights - Ellie Goulding.

Adding this as well.  Found after listening to Burn.  It's cool but not as good as Burn I think.

Ellie Goulding Burn

Burn Ellie Goulding

Haven't listened to this much yet but probably will.  It's got 200 million hits. Listened to Avicii Levels for about 3 days didn't really play it today though.  Found this last night. I like the lyrics.

Avicii Levels.

Avicii - Levels.

Found this last night been thrashing it since.  I seem to like the video as well.

Asking For a Revelation About Jesus Christ.

This is another thread I created on Abovetopsecret.com entitled "Asking For a Revelation".  In the thread I ask what Jesus meant when he said eat my flesh and drink my blood and being born again.  I'm still in the dark as I guess no one really knows.  Anyhow here is the thread:



Are you able to provide for me a revelation about Jesus? Like this. What did he mean when he said eat my flesh drink my blood? How do you eat his flesh and drink his blood. I thought of it as telepathy for a while. Genetic coding. But it could be anything. This is why i'm asking for a revelation. I don't know what Jesus meant, would have me do and how to solve the problem

As iron sharpens iron, so one person sharpens another. So in this case something is passed passing from me to you in trade. Jesus words are his flesh and blood perhaps, the words of his that are printed in the bible, these words are pretty much all we know about him. So words passed in unique combination in this code we call language have the ability to help others or destroy.

John 6:63 The words I have spoken to you--they are full of the Spirit and life. Jesus said this. How do you capitalize on Jesus and the words he spokie and get maximum life and spirit out of them? Jesus words are pretty much still a riddle and total mystery. This is why I do discuss them when others talk about science. Why is Jesus and his beliefs any different than Tane the Maori God of forest and birds. Need your revelation on this as well. Hitler was able to get people to follow him. I'm finding it more absurd to believe in Jesus without some kind of revelation that sweeps the world. I need more stories of Jesus from people. If I am to imitate Jesus then these words of mine also contain life and spirit though not on the scale of Jesus probably. There is the power of life and death in the tongue, in these words I speak and your response.

So what is your revelation of LOVE that you communicating. I think often as we try and help others the first thing we should be doing is trying to help ourselves. We are weak. Did you know we are in the dark. We don't know very much. We are in the dark over so many things. Scrambling around bumping into each other imitating and copying each other but no one really knows. All the big secrets are just that. Secrets. Things that would provide light are hidden away.

We all operate in the dark. We think in the dark. If you are able to communicate to me a solved piece of the puzzle then this is good for me and possibly I can trade you for a puzzle piece that I have solved of equivalent value and this will create work for both of us but probably not. I'm looking to gain from this post in some way. Gain something. Hopefully life. I'm a little short on love and life at the moment.

I'm also looking for charity as I am a charity case. Not money or material items but items of other trade like words and thoughts and feelings anything charity wise you want to post. Charity me a post in this thread or a star and flag. Charity me with your generosity.

What is something you want to write about? This thread is pretty much open. Is it only God who can bring revelation?

I struggle with Jesus because of Noahs Ark, and repopulating every animal from only 2 of a kind and us all being related to noah. Also Jonah in the whale seems a bit absurd. Moses and a couple million people wandering the desert also seems a bit far fetched. Jesus actually uses Noah when he says it will be just like in the days of Noah at the second coming.

I have trouble believing in Jesus yet some part of me still fights for him even though it's so far way out. I really like his sayings. I like Good. The new testament has become like a Tolkien Epic for me.

Everything comes to a dead end. All I can predict for myself is like others before me I will die. Perhaps there is a way to solve this. This seems to be a core effect of what Jesus was trying to achieve. Jesus fought death and came to bring immortality.

I'm looking for revelation and charity, knowledge would be nice also as would any gains or benefits. How bout proof of love? Do you love me? Perhaps you could demonstrate LOVE for me so I can imitate and incorporate. Does anybody really love? I dunno?

What would you tell your kids as there growing up? What would you tell your father or mother? What would you tell me?

Beware the pain, suffering, misery. Beware. Plan and practice for it is greater than you know. Humans have the potential to suffer ever so greatly. Pretty much practically everyone underestimates just how great pain can be. This is my trade to you. Involve your thinking more about suffering. If you do actually suffer this thinking could possibly help you.

One thing. If your in pain let people know. Don't let them write it off as something else like schizophrenia or anything other than you are in pain a wrong diagnosis could stick with you all your life. Tell them forcefully about how you are in pain.

The pain can be kind of hard to locate exactly where it is in the body but keep telling them. Demand drugs to mask the pain and when in better feeling try and help the doctor to find where the pain is. Get xrays and whatever other scans available.

No one actually cared that I was in pain. I pretty much shut up about it. It was extreme always on for 10 years. You have just underestimated pain again and weren't even in the ballpark.

Check your diet. It may help to eat better and different foods. I ate poorly as finances were an issue.

Anyway what did Jesus mean when he said eat my flesh drink my blood. Also What did he mean when he said you must be born again. That's another riddle and mystery Scooby. What is your revelation?

Sorry to have bored you.

Leeda.

So that's my thread about Jesus asking for a revelation.  I didn't get one.  It's highly likely that Jesus is a fake. It's hard to say if he did miracles and was raised from the dead.  There is no proof.  I would like to believe in the works of Jesus like feeding 5000 people, walking on water, resurrecting people from the dead but they seem pretty much a myth now.  Nothing has happened in 2000 years and we all still suffer.

I would like to believe in Jesus as the New Testament has become like a Tolkien Epic to me but I struggle to believe because of Noahs ark which in literal form seems impossible but yet Jesus says that his coming will be just like the days of Noah.  Also Jonah in the whale, I don't believe that either.  Moses I can possibly believe but parting the seas would be difficult.  

The whole bible and Jesus thing seems like a great big myth and legend.  The world surely does not know God if he exists.  God hasn't saved me ever from anything.  I haven't had any contact with God that I can recognise.  I think that I have to come to the conclusion that Jesus resurrection is a myth that can't be proved.  

I do love the bible though mostly the new testament. I love Jesus teachings they are awesome.  The thing is Jesus probably did actually walk the earth and died a horrible death and suffered majorly.  To bear the suffering that Jesus probably did is surely a hard thing that not many can do.  

I love the new testament bible but I can't as yet believe the story that the churches propagate. 2000 years after events there is very little proof, evidence or facts of exactly what happened.  It's really upto God to prove himself.  I have tried but failed.  I can no longer think clearly enough to try and understand really.  

So yeah I don't really believe in Jesus but I try to.  I find some of the attempts of other christians to convert people into belief hilarious and very amusing.  Some of the beliefs generated from the bible are so dumb but yet people still hold to there beliefs.  Like the earth being 6000 years old.  The bible says the world in it's wisdom didn't know God.  There is only a small possibility that God exists.  I have looked into it and don't see the actions of Jesus in my day to day living.  I wish he were true but it seems not.  So yeah I don't really believe as much as I would like to.  The truth will set you free I believe this and would love to know the truth about everything and anything all truth all the time.  Buy the truth and do not sell it.

Anyway enough from me.

Darcy Lee

Leeda

Above Top Secret Forum Posts.

I have been posting on a forum called Above Top Secret.  Nobody pays me much attention and I don't get many replies and my threads die pretty quickly.  The following is from a Thread I created called "Trade me."

Here is the thread:

So what you got to trade? I got all this. I'm looking to trade. I guess we have to play with in the rules so that means no money or actual material possessions will be traded. But we can trade other stuff like ideas and words and thoughts.


I got 10 years on the line most extreme form of suffering you can imagine experienced top quality pain suffering 24/7 for 10 years.

I believe in the future when thoughts are setup on a market. My suffering and pain will go for top dollars.

I must be like the oldest man in the world pain wise. I am old and i'm only 35. I am an old man. I have lived 100 lives no one at all.

I perhaps have a few perfections developed from suffering though I can't name them and i'm still very weak.

So what do you have to trade. I reckon I can afford just about anything. Trade me your words. Ebay me some of your thoughts and ideas.

What do you have to trade me?

Also not only am I looking to trade but i'm looking for charity as well. I'm poor spiritually and of mind. Your charity would be appreciated which could go in the form of a post of some of your words in unique arrangement in this thread. Yay for charity.

So I want to trade. A long term sufferer of the top 1%. Already from this first post you receive life I hope, it's possible.

Trades?

What you got to trade?

Leeda


That was the end of the post.  I made a second post and that now follows:

Well we must have something we can play the trading game with other than money and material possessions. I reckon there's other things to trade. Matthew 13:45 Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls.

So this is me seeking fine pearls. I'm a merchant and trader as we all are possibly.

My words offer trade. Words aren't possibly given enough value. The truth is extremely valuable. People who know the truth have an advantage. I'm looking for a fine pearl. I don't know what it is yet. I'm hoping i'll know it when I perceive it.

Spend some words in this thread in charity or trade. I have initiated the trade with my words coming first. If you post you are trading back.

Your words probably have no value to me but it depends on what you write.

Information can be encoded in and exchanged with words. Can you help ManKind? What do you possess that will help or improve the world that can be traded to others so you yourself profit?

How can we profit each other? What resources do we have apart from money and material items to trade in, there must be other things?

I guess we are all just that poor that we only have money and material items to trade in. Poor poor poor.

We are trading right now as you read my words I think.

Anyway I just thought that as a merchant looking for fine pearls I could trade something that I have in excess for something of value that you have in excess in return.

There are no established trade protocols I mean we don't even know what we're trading in.

Can you trade in LOVE between friends family strangers and even enemies? There's plenty of anger to be traded in the world.

How do I lift some of your burdens through trade? I'm sure I can make your load lighter as you can mine.

I can't think of anything to trade other than these words i'm writing which don't hold much value as of yet.

How do you know your not talking to someone who will one day be famous thereby making these posts famous along with those who replied?

Ok I propose this. Oneday I will be famous. Making this thread and any thread of mine on ATS Famous. If you post in this thread then oneday when the truth finally comes out this thread will be dragged up and depending on what you say you will be viewed possibly by alot of people. How you respond to me will be measured on a world wide scale.

Yep. This is something else i'm offering in the trade. I say I will be famous in the future one day, it could be after I die but I will be famous.

You need to trade with me by posting in this thread. You get the chance to operate in the dark through faith maybe this. If you fail to post in this thread yet read it and remember it then it will be counted as a missed opportunity. You really need to post something.

So i'm offering a trade. Couple things. My suffering experience and that I will be famous making posts in my threads possibly famous at least to be viewed by many people.

If you post in other threads they will be forgotten. My threads will remain for a lot longer. This is the trade you get for posting. All you need to do is post in this thread.

Be careful what you trade.

Trade me something in this thread today other than material and money. If we rule those out what do we have left possibly to trade? What is the fine pearl.

Trade Me Please.


So that's both posts I made to that thread.  They probably took me a good hour or more maybe to write.  I have added the photos just so it's not a wall of text.  Really instead of posting on a forum I should be posting to this webpage.  I do find some of the replies interesting and that's what keeps me coming back but most people don't believe me and write me off as schizophrenic.  I managed to get banned from Godlikeproductions.com which is another forum I use so have lost the Leeda nick name from there.  I got banned for begging for money.  I didn't know it was a bad thing damn.

I have a thread going on longecity.org thats asking for a house so I can further the cause of longevity and immortality.  I plan on spending the next 40 years typing and using my mind about no more pain, suffering and torture, comforting others and being a cheerleader for immortality and longevity.  I really do need my own house to achieve some of my goals.  Hell owning my own house is one of my biggest goals.

It looks like without charity I will never own my own house.  I am doomed to either minimum wage or living on the benefit for the rest of my life.  Either way you can't really get a deposit for a house from these sources of income as the deposit needed is to great.  Hopefully charity will oneday find me a worthy cause and donate me a house.

Darcy Lee
Leeda



I added the following post to the thread after I had completed this post on my website so am adding it now in a later edit.  Here is the new post I made:


We have to lift and elevate people and help them in their current positions hopefully taking them to the next or a higher level. If the planet or whole world has an output rating or life measurement then we need to lift the output or measurement.

I believe every lifeform on the planet counts towards the total output. We need to lift everybody and everything. We must love our enemies and find peace perhaps where there had been none.

If you intervene in someones life at the right moment you could have them living in a class above what they would of been.

So this is what we need. I charge you to help people. The planet as individuals can be lifted. Everyone just needs to do a little bit more than nothing and we can win. Not even everyone needs to help but obviously the more that take the effort to help the greater the life output rating and the greater the victory.

By your choices you can also live a higher life follow a higher stream. It might not take work but a choice you make can affect your life and the stream you live.

Your own current class can be lifted by your own efforts. So it's also about helping yourself.

Everyone grows stronger everyday. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.

I hope I have altered your world. This comes from me as a kid at kindergarden. I was thinking about grace and good and evil. I came up with that evil copies good and learns from good twisting what good gave to evil to it's own ends. I figured that as evil was copying good I could lead evil into captivity by getting it to copy me in a certain way.

It gets a bit fuzzy but at the standard nobody does nothing rate with evil copying good then evil would match good grace point for point and eventually evil would beat good. But if good people start lifting others and themselves then good starts to get extra turns before the next cycle and more abundant grace is produced and it starts to be that for every point evil produces grace abounds even more and produces multiple points.

There is a teaching from good that you get a choice. If you choose to convert it to evil you condemn yourself and there is no one to blame but your very own self. Good is the original source. All will be seen in the light.

Leeda

Your Thoughts May Not Be Your Own.

I guess if I do have anger issues it's only because i'm tortured.  Not that such torture is recognised by anyone other than myself the torturee and the torturer.  It's not very fun being a tard and having people read your mind with technology.  They must do it to a lot of people from a very young age.  People upon people they must be manipulating everything without people knowing.

I think some disassociation from ones thoughts and not giving ownership to every thought that you ever have. Some thoughts are not your own perhaps.

Don't own every thought and feeling as yourself it could be coming from an external source.

If you have bad negative thoughts that gate you and hold you back then maybe they have been planted there. Every single last bit of negativity. Perhaps it's time to recognise them as not of you? They will be tricky and deceitful. Speaking in your own voice. They will sound like you. Plan on defeating such things.

Leeda.

Darcy Lee.

2 Cellos Thunderstruck.

Thunderstruck - 2 Cellos.  Cover of AC/DC Thunderstruck by  Luka Sulic and Stjepan Hauser on Cellos only.

Dark Horse Katy Perry Ft Juicy J.

Katy Perry Ft Juicy J - Dark Horse.

This was uploaded on Feb 20th 2014 and as of todays date it has 51 million hits. So that's 51 million in 10 days.  That's pretty epic numbers for a new video. It should reach 100 million no problem. I enjoy this song. The bass is good and I like the video as well especially the car.

Cyndi Lauper Time After Time.

Time After Time - Cyndi Lauper.  This song is from about 1984 so that's 30 years this year.  It's a slower song though I like it still.  I like the kiss the dog gives the boyfriend in the beginning.

I tell ya my computer needs more ram.  I only have 2gb total of ram.  I bought another 2gb as I have 3 free upgrade slots still but the 2gb was faulty.  I sent it back and the second one worked for like a week then the machine started crashing again.  I would take stability over something that crashes but is faster anyday.  I haven't been bothered to send the ram back as it's probably not worth it i'd rather just take the hit and be ripped off.

Oneday I will get a new computer with at least 8gb ram.  That would be awesome.  I usually have alot of tabs open in my browser at one time so that takes heaps of ram also it would be nice to be able to alt tab quicker if I have a game loaded or it would work better with dual monitors. My current computer would be nice and a bit faster with another 2gb of ram but it's ddr2 so it's real expensive compared to ddr3. If I had more ram in my machine I could maybe save 30 seconds or so of time here and there.

This is and has been Time After Time.

Leeda

I WANT MY OWN HOUSE. NOW. TODAY.

Haven't posted much text in a while.  Been posting music videos.  Something i'm very happy about is that Google Blogger offer text message login protection.  I've recently added that.  I was worried if anyone found my password they would be able to hack my account and delete all my posts which would really suck.  I do feel safer now.  If anyone tries to log in from a different computer they need to have my cell phone as it will ask for a confirmation code which is sent by text.

One thing that's happened to me is that I have been given 90 days tenancy termination notice and have until May the 10th 2014 to move out and find a new house.  This simply sucks majorly.

I mean in theory I should have my own fully paid for house by now after Sept 11th 2001 and what happened there.  If I could simply post that phone call on You Tube bam probably 30 million hits and it would certainly generate a house as well as a little fame.  But alas the Governments of USA and NZ conspire to torture and keep me poor so that nobody will listen.

I WANT MY OWN HOUSE.  This website has failed to generate a house.  Again if this website had my phone call from 2 days before Sept 11th 2001 embedded in it and links from Youtube to here this site would become popular and pick up many other sites linking to it as well as many hits in general.

I WANT MY OWN HOUSE.  The USA and NZ GOVTS owe me a house.  They also owe me a copy of the phone call I made 2 days before the 911 terrorist attacks in America.

It is going to be near impossible to find a one bedroom flat to live in.  I should be settled already and not living this daily tortured existence that I live.  I should have at least a little money and a house of my own. This should of occurred along time ago.  Why do evil men and women get away with such things.  No one even believes my story.  This is one reason why.  They use the cover of darkness to conceal there deeds. They keep me locked up in a dark place as well.  They don't let me think.  They distort my mind.  They are indeed evil.  They have proven themselves as such.  They have no interest in good.

I WANT MY OWN HOUSE.  I should own my own house by now.  I have earned it. It is evil that I must suffer again.  I have suffered for so long and so hard. Not one person understands the suffering that I have endured at the hands of other people in high positions.  I have earned a house.  I WANT MY OWN HOUSE AND I WANT IT NOW.

I am very angry.  But this anger is useless.  I WANT MY OWN HOUSE.  I am owed a house for my work. I am not being recognised.  The NZ and USA GOVTS are bullies.  They do whatever they want to whoever they want.  They do whatever they want.  They keep me and my phone call which would set me free under wraps.  I should have my very own house by now. Instead everyone ignores me.

This is very evil what is happening to me.  It is done by men.  These men and women make the active decision to torture me daily and deny me food and a house. There is no God to protect us from these Hitler type people who think that they are right in there own eyes to torture and maim and kill.

I WANT MY OWN HOUSE.  Right now.  Today.  I want a copy of my phone call to post on YOUTUBE. This is evil.  This is highly very evil.  This is totally evil.  This is wrong and evil.  This is bad.  This is evil.

Everybody just thinks i'm schizophrenic.  Technology and men did this to me not anything I did myself.  This evil that has befallen me is from the USA and NZ Govts with men behind it driving it.

This is evil.  I WANT MY OWN HOUSE. Today. Right now.  This is evil.  I really need a place to live. I have earned my own house.  I need a house of my own.  I have earned it through work. I have suffered more than anyone living I imagine if this is possible not counting Jesus if he's still alive.

This is evil what has happened to me.  I want justice.  Please help. But you won't.  All I WANT IS MY OWN HOUSE.

Give me a house USA AND NZ GOVTS.  I deserve it.  Why torture innocence.  You know you are evil in your ways, your secrets are dirty dirty dirty.

I WANT MY OWN HOUSE.

I HAVE EARNED IT.

HOW LONG MUST I SUFFER AND WAIT.



Leeda.

Carrie Underwood Blown Away.

Blown Away - Carrie Underwood.

Found this and it was ok.  Getting a bit bored of it now maybe.  This is like the 4th post for this date and all music videos.  Been stockpiling.

Woe Is Me Delinquents

Woe Is Me - Delinquents

Got a few listens out of this but not many.  I like most of the song.  Going to add it because I think it's worth coming back to.

Gravity Shawn Mcdonald

Gravity Shawn Mcdonald.

This is one of my songs again.  Just the chorus where it says "I don't want to fall away from you but Gravity is pulling me on down".  That's what I said over Newstalk ZB live radio air in 2001.  I definitely spoke that line in 2001 I remember.  Anyway if your just catching up on this post and don't know my whole story then this is a little wierd.  But i'm not even going to fill you in.  You have to browse the website.  Check the Osama link on the left.

Gwen Stefani Cool

Cool - Gwen Stefani

I like the chorus of this song that's why i'm adding it, I think it will be worth a listen later.  I listened to Holaback Girl by Gwen as well.  That's pretty good also but i'm not going to add it.  Note to self remember Holaback Girl.

Olivia Wise Roar.

Olivia Wise - Roar.

Listened to this a few times over couple days so going to add it.  Didn't actually like the original Roar by Katy Perry much but enjoy this version alot more.

Olivia recorded this on September 6th 2013.  She had brain cancer and passed away on November 25th. I think she was like 16 years old or something. This is her Roar.

Dire Straights Sultans of Swing Live

Dire Straights Sultans of Swing Live.

The drumming in this is amazing he really gets going later in the song the guitaring all seems pretty basic but the drummer is cool.

Rihanna Shut Up and Drive.

Rihanna Shut Up and Drive.  Got a day or 2 out of this after coming back to it from a while ago after seeing it in the movie Wreck it Ralph.

This is Love.

This is Love - Will.i.am ft. Eva Simmons.

Clicked this song while listening to Reach for the Stars cause this song had 150 mill views.  Its ok.  Passable to add.

Reach for the Stars.

Will.i.am - Reach for the Stars.

Was on twitter and I read that someone was playing this song loud in their car and Will.i.am actually pulled up along side them and gave them the thumbs up.  This song also lead to another Will.i.am song that I like.

Fear of the Dark Iron Maiden.

Fear of the Dark - Iron Maiden.

The dj on the radio got requested a song by Iron Maiden and he guessed which Iron Maiden song it was going to be so made me think this was one of Iron Maidens more popular songs.  I liked the song when it came on the radio and so looked it up and now been playing it all day.  I also got a couple by Will.Iam to add.

Immortality War On Death.

1 Corinthians 15:26 The last enemy that shall be destroyed is death.

I found this blog entry from my old war on death immortality website that was hosted at 110mb.com.  The site has been taken down now but it was my original blog that I started when I first made a blog all those years ago.  This post is dated 12th of February 2007.  It's an interesting read.  Turns out my house was actually bugged.  I wasn't crazy.

This post represents the theory that I had a song even before September 11th 2001.  I was being monitored as I am able to look back now and see definitely now that I have knowledge of the matrix that has been revealed to me.  Anyway here is the post for old times sake.

12/02/07
If you've just come to this page and this is the first blog entry that your reading then i'll update you as to what i'm up to. Basically i'm just trying to earn some money through the internet. Donations mostly, offering at the moment nothing in return for them. Free money. The money will go towards, well, hopefully a house, but as well all the possessions that make a house a house. Things like televisions, stereos, furniture. Any money will also be used for the general running costs of day to day living as well, electricity, food, basically anything you can think of. Some money could also be used for the promotion of this website, advertising through bidvertiser (i'm currently running a $9 US campaign at the moment from earnings of this website) or even something like the purchase of more domain names.

Things of encountered so far are that there is lots of competition from other websites who have much better ideas and/or better website design and/or are offering something of value in return. My plan to combat this is to try and operate this website for a long period of time say 4-5 years and over that time integrate ideas that will aid in receiving donations. The time factor is how I hope to compete, with time I will gain alot more content and come up with a clearer direction and have things running more smoothly and have a broader understanding of what is required to earn money for nothing. This website has been running for 5 months now since yesterday. I haven't had much traffic yet. Other websites have had so much more traffic after starting at around the same time. Traffic should be just "over time" as well. I mean i'm in a hurry but I can be patient as well. I haven't had any donations yet. So far i've earned $10 dollars US from a sponsered text link advertisement and thats it. It's a start though.

More information about me is that i'm kinda crazy. This is another reason I desire a house. A house is safety and security. Kinda crazy people need these things. If i'm not crazy then I am at least quite sick. The doctors actually have some debate whether i'm crazy or not, but they do definitely agree that i'm sick. When I was 16 I started smoking cannabis. I got very heavily involved in cannabis but not other drugs. When I was 20 and a half I got very sick and turned to religion. I was and am in alot of pain, i'd describe it like having a headache all the time. Cannabis has done alot of damage to my brain, to my thinking, cognitive and language abilities (basically my life). The lesson perhaps that can be passed to others from my experiences is to avoid cannabis and if you do smoke it to do so in moderation with the aim to get off it completely. I started smoking cannabis thinking that it was safe and the general opinion of people that smoke it is that it is quite safe, but my suffering and misery from it speak differently. The only advice about cannabis that I will give now is to avoid it with a passion. I've moved on from religion now, but that caused me alot of problems, believing in something thats false and not true does that. Thats my opinion of religion now, of Jesus. Avoid Jesus too with a passion. Life is difficult for many, I think it's impossible to avoid believing in things that are lies and wrong etc throughout our lives but most try as I do. So thats where I am at the moment.
Here now is one of my insanity storys, something that I think happened but maybe because i'm real sick it's all just false. I can't tell the difference if you understand. I was/am real sick. It will read as crazy but then some consider I am. I do suffer.

So well I was working in Wellington NZ, at Bond and Bond an electronics retail store as a sales person. I new for ages that I was on the way out and was sick but I just kept going hoping that I would pull through and get better. I was definitely delusional, mostly religious beliefs. So with my delusions I quit my job and moved back to my parents house. Well for some reason I thought that the government had bugged my parents house, as ya do when your delusional and religious. Well to deal with this I made a few comments out loud directly speaking to these so called listening devices. One comment was "It's sin in your time". It's hard to keep things in context, but what I meant was sorta like they were sinning with these listening devices and that "In your time". From here I will introduce you to the word "Mondegreens". A mondegreen is the mishearing (usually accidental) of a phrase in such a way that it aqquires a new meaning (form wikipedia). Like you hear a song on the radio and think the lyrics say one thing perfectly but when you look up the lyrics they actually are completely different from what you heard. Click the mondegreen link to read the wikipedia article. What i'll add next is that somehow I got the idea of the word "blue" in my head for about 6 months. I would just be walking around my house and with sadness say "blue" and over that six months I had many conversations with many people about "blue" but I won't tell you what was in those conversations (they new I was crazy of course but blue ya know it just made sense to me the crazy person). I had this belief in blue. For six months everything in my life revolved around the word "blue". (Told ya I was crazy). My answer to any question was quite commonly "blue".

Back to the listening devices. Another thing I said out loud to them was something like "Indeed I would Die" referring to immortality and what I had given and would give for it's invention and to me the only thing to die for. To the listening devices (and possibly cameras now) I also explained I was blue inside and that they were blue. Err ya had to be there. So I was real sick right. Well another of my beliefs was telepathy. I knew I was sick and I believed that the goverment was around and to me they were there to help but there was nothing they could do really. Well, not long after I got sick I was walking across my room and I was like, OH OH, there going to make a song about me. I then sat down on my bed and started to um try and help them write the song, with my telepathy of course. It's hard to explain how it worked but basically it was like combining energy of sorts (disclaimer - telepathy is not real). This was all in my head. Anyway it was real muddy inside my head but after a couple of lines of the song the question was asked what was my favourite car as this was to be included in the song. They chose corvette, but a corvette wasn't my favourite car, so I then started to have an argument (in my head with the songwriters) about how a corvette wasn't my favourite car but they just kept going with the song and wouldn't listen so I just left them to it after becoming real frustrated. That part was real crazy huh. Basically what i'm saying is that all the things I spoke out loud to the "bugs" are mondegreened into the song "Blue" by Eiffel 65 and that I proclaimed "oh oh there going to make a song about me" then had an argument about a corvette not being my favourite car and that corvette is included in the Eiffel 65 song and spent six months talking and thinking about nothing but blue. Just as another thing, I also said out loud to the bugs "Move your Body" referring to how they should move their minds and such. There is another song called "Move your Body" by Eiffel 65, with the minds aspect involved. All just the coincidences of a crazy person I guess. I must say though that I can't exactly communicate efficiently and coherently which would detract from what possibly could be real. All just the insanity of a craxy person I guess.

The mondegreened lines I hear are the chorus, where I hear "Indeed I would die" instead of blue da ba dee, and the line where it says "Blue like my corvette, it's standing outside" I hear as "it's sin in your time". The first part of that line used to sound different before I read the lyrics but i've forgotton now. The only real compelling evidence is that I spent like 6 months mentioning nothing but "Blue". If someone does that and then a song comes out like that what are they to think really. Having the notion that they were going to write a song and then having an argument about a corvette as well hmm er yeah this is crazy. Ignore me. I think there's is also one or two more mondegreened lines in there but this was like 8 years ago so I don't remember. Something else I said to the bugs was "Listen" in the same style that appears in the song.  All just coincidence I guess and the thoughts and experiences of someone who can only be and is crazy. I spent six months saying and doing nothing but "Blue". Anything can be heard wherever you want so don't take this as real to much. I just wanted to say. Oh yeah another thing I said to the bugs is "Blew my house" with the line in the song using blue instead of blew but I won't tell ya the context.

Here are the lyrics to "Blue" by Eiffel 65. Also you could have a look at some of the lyrics mondegreen websites that exist that have examples of peoples lyrics mondegreens as they have heard the same things that I have heard so i'm not alone. This was just a story of some coincidences and some mondegreens of a crazy person I was real sick though so they could of been doing something nice for me as there was nothing else they could do. Blue!!

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Downloaded this off You Tube and had it on repeat for a while in media player so it deserves a spot.  First post of the new year.  Happy 2014 New Year.  I just had a few drinks round here at my house.  Slept the entire next day pretty much recovering wasn't hung over just exhausted.  Also today I was exhausted.  I don't have very much battery life charge.  Can be annoying.