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Showing posts with label Schizophrenia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Schizophrenia. Show all posts

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Come Alive Dry Bones




Neck Bones.
Come Alive (Dry Bones)

I got dry bones. That's why I looked up this up. My neck has an injury. It's healing with thought. But it's been like 19 years. Progress is slow. Sometimes I get very disheartened that it will never heal. Pray for my neck please.

I'm hoping to be swallowed up by life. I suffered for about 9 - 10 years. I didn't even know what was wrong. Just took it. Took me years to figure it was my neck. It cracks and creaks and give off feelings of injury7 noe. I thought it was my brain. I guess broken bones take thought to heal otherwise mine would've. I got hit by a Govt weapon that shatters bones. But no one believes this. They just think im skitzo.

I'm going to be a powerful weapon in the war on death.

Add label "Bones"

Darcy Lee
Leeda.

Tuesday, February 17, 2015

NecrotPain. Scriptures For The Day.

I Believe The Govt Damaged My Bones.
I believe the Govt Damaged the bones or whatever my neck is made from with a weapon. A secret weapon that they deploy to go through walls. It can explode your insides. I believe my neck was hit by some sort of ultrasonic or weapon designed to induce pain and do a little damage depending on power settings. Think Microwave and cooking. They cooked me. I went pop. It damaged my bones it was that powerful.

The thing is I took xrays of my neck. I believe the xrays would definitely have shown something. They came back negative.

I still suffer from a type of osteoarthritis in my neck. My bones all grind together.

I believe my pain has been covered up. I must speak up.

I have truly suffered. Beyond reckoning. I believe I have set world records possibly universal records that will never be passed. Never. Even if you try.

My pain was excruciating. I believe alot of my bones in the top half of my body have been hit by this ray gun. It mainly shows in the top half of my neck.

I believe this was covered up. As it was a couple years before I got the xrays and they had dedicated all their resources towards a mental illness. They didn't want to go back. Also it's a form of human experimentation. The pain.

I must speak up. The Pain.

Even if  I am delusional about the cover up.  Well I am not delusional about the pain that I endured. Records have been set. Endurance athlete records. Soldiering Records.

They were playing with my life. The Pain.

We were not designed to endure 1 day of the type of pain that I underwent. The Pain.

It's like having your head chopped off. The vertebrae are smashed and the discs are broken. All you know and feel is pain in your head. But you can't tell were it's coming from.

For all I new the pain was in my brain.

Very real though. It did not lapse this pain. There was no place to rest my head. 24/7 I was under this pain.

So if my neck issue is false the pain still existed I just didn't know what it was. Also well I know I was tortured by Govt and technology. After I had been hit with their ray gun they continued to torture me for a very long time. The Pain.

The only evidence I have of my neck is the current grinding that the bones do. It also feels like bones are out of place in there as there is sometimes a thudding with my pulse.

Whenever I lie down at night to goto bed this for the first 2 min or so this is the best healing time.

I can kinda feel nutrients of at least a type of healing taking place with the flow of blood. The Pain.

It doesn't happen everytime but it's basically like the only time I feel i'm healing.

Narrow is the way. Progression is slow. Why am I still unwell after 16.0 years of being sick.

If I can heal then healing has been set back by new injurys that the Govt has inflicted upon me.

Now they inflicted these injuries because I said "America Sucks" a few times and got a bit antsy with them. I am now deaf totally in my left ear. My right ear is also poor. The Pain.

They spam an electronic high frequency sound at me all day and night. It's very loud. The Pain.

It has made me deaf. So yep the torture stopped briefly from the Govt for a few years after 9/11 but it started again in 2009 when I rejected them and their dumb songs. The Pain.

But still that whole time I was setting records for suffering with my neck. The pain left around 2008. The pain started around February 1999. So that's around 10 years of the most brutal universal record type of suffering you can imagine. I topped it out. The Pain.

Foxes have holes, birds have nests, but I had no place to rest my head.

The word NECROTPAIN is a word I invented and it clocked Google. There were no search engine results for it. So it can be pronounced Necro-T-Pain or Neckrot-Pain.

The T is for bearing your cross or my at least for my interest in Christian stuff. Necro for death. Pain for pain. Deathtpain you could say also. The Pain.

Necrotpain the word that didn't exist and clocked Google.

So just saying i'm now being tortured yet again.

It's not so bad this time. But they possess you and mind control you.

For your worst enemies will be members of your own household.

Enough Said. The Pain.

Acknowledge my record or don't. But it's real.

I also want the truth. Buying Truth. I believe once the truth is available people won't be able to get enough. I'm not so much saying the truth about me. But some freedom bringing, above all else, type of event. The highest truth possible. The Pain.

I would like to burn with the highest truth possible.

Also need love. I seem to be in short supply of both truth and love. Please send supplies.

I can't figure reality out anymore. It's to much a mixture of technology and myself. I've been a slave all my life. They treat their slaves horribly. The Govt. The Pain.

I'll stop talking now.

Thanks for reading if you got this far.

This has been an adventure. I Must Yet Still Speak Up.


Leeda
Darcy Lee The Pain

Sunday, August 24, 2014

My Word Shall Not Return To Me Void.



Isaiah 55:11-12 In Song.

Isaiah 55:11-12 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it.  12 For ye shall go out with joy, and be led forth with peace: the mountains and the hills shall break forth before you into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands

I actually totally did this as a kid, verse 11 anyway, I musta been like 9-10 years old.  I must of heard the scripture somewhere and imitated it. What I did as a kid in primary school was to somehow send my word out.  Then what happened is it came back and someone had voided it but they were lying.  I had to add something to my word to make it so it couldn't be voided by cheating.  I was like "What.... Void..... My word shall not return to me void" I was sending out my word to do good things.  But alas this was along time ago.  To my thinking I was doing something original that hadn't been done.  It's only now I discover the scripture almost word for word exactly what I was doing.  In this scripture I have imitated.

I added this cause I thought the tune was kinda catchy and also this is the scripture I have been meditating on for the last couple days.  

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Plants Hear Danger.



In this video plants hear themselves being eaten which then triggers a chemical defense against the insects. Interesting.  I just do wonder what type of defences humans have.  If plants can do this then we humans must be able to do things as well.  At the moment all anybody knows is punching kicking stabbing shooting dropping bombs etc.  This would be like an exotic weapon on a human.  I'm adding this as I found it interesting and I like it's truth.  It give's us insight into plants.    

Surely we must have some defences against predators and being tortured and suffering.

I hope for the day of no pain and no suffering and no crying and no death.  I'm being tortured at the moment by the NZ and USA Govt's.  They play a high frequency sound in my ears which has made me deaf.  They read my mind and blank it and insert there thoughts basically totally humiliating me by as many people as possible that use this tech.  It's all a big joke to them not actually anything righteous to do with punishment more for there amusement.

I hope one day these people will be punished by the public.  The public are treated like cattle and of no importance and these people will kill you in a second.  They want to read our minds and control our thoughts by chipping us.  Their advantage is that no one believes.  You are called skitzophrenic if you talk like this.

I hope that immortality comes about and these people are punished.  I could be rich but these Govt's keep me poor.  If I could post my phone call on YouTube I would get 5 million+ hits and definitely make some money.  These Govt people are evil and need to be stopped.  I see a future govt where everyone from smallest to largest is involved and there are no secrets.

They use secrecy and darkness as weapons against the public.  They are evil.  Please stop them.  

Friday, November 19, 2010

Tin Foil Hats.

Tin Foil Hats The jokes a bit old. It hides something though. People will just accept when the technology is finally released.

Everyone will say I knew all along.

I'm a pioneer. I must take the jibes and jaunts of people who haven't seen this technology demonstrated. The unbelievers. I must be locked up and goto Jail.

Hurts I must say. Getting beaten up. For telling the truth. Not one person will come to my defense.

In defense of this technology. The ability to send full motion video text images, practically anything directly into your mind.

I'm a pioneer and trail blazer and prophet. I'm sorry that I have to yell and scream about this technology.

I'm sorry I can't yell loud enough. I'm sorry that I appear as nothing but Schizophrenic. But that's exactly how they condemn me and no-ones going to believe otherwise.

I mean this is important. Really important.

Please remember I TOLD YOU SO I don't care if you don't listen, just remember.

Darcy

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Schizophrenia.


I have Schizophrenia. Thats what alot of doctors have told me. My work here on this page represents that for most perhaps. I can see it myself. I'm on medication. I guess i'll write here to bring awareness to the condition. Basically it's a mental illness that can include things like hallucinations and voices.

Some people would have seen the movie A Beautiful Mind with Russel Crowe. This could be used perhaps as something of what it is like. For myself it's like everything is garbled. I generally feel very sick all the time and it's hard to work and do even simple things. Creativity is something that doesn't come easily. I really don't know what to say about schizophrenia other than if the doctors are correct in there diagnoses of me that it can be very painful. Actually one doctor said the pain was all in my mind, as in i'm not in real pain so possibly it's not painful at all i'm just imagining it. Would I know when I was in pain?

How about that. I have a very poor memory now. Thats one thing i've noticed. Looking back at my life I wasn't very smart as alot of the decisions i've made have lead to my illness. It's a poor life for me now compared to what I had. Everyones reality is different. For one person the world is an awesome place to the other it's really bad. My life has degraded substantially. Most of my health problems can be traced back to marijuana and tobacco. I would say I had problems before that though that made the decisions for me to start smoking.

Skitzophrenia. It's a bad uncurable thing that affects many people. I haven't said much about it really. It does make life bad though. I hope you live the life of the dream yourselfs. I can never experience what could of been. I hope that I can live to the age of 72 which will be the year 2050 so I can still experience alot and have at least something to say for what happened. I still smoke cigarettes so my lifespan is proberly only another 20 years though. I hope my imaginary suffering goes away oneday. I could be imagining anything.

From Darcy.