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Showing posts with label Suffering. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Suffering. Show all posts

Thursday, June 5, 2014

"At The Bottom". Longecity.com Thread.

I posted this yesterday in my At The Bottom Thread on Longecity.com and am adding it now.  This actually came before in the thread than the post I made to this site just before down below.  So thread order was this post was yesterday the 3rd of June and the post below was written and appeared in the thread today the 4th of June.  This is an older post to the thread than the post made below.


HERE IS THE POST MADE TO THE THREAD:



1117 views as of todays date. This thread began on January 29th 2014.  Not much has happened.  I have moved and managed to find a new flat paying the same weekly rent as the old flat.  I am comfortable I guess but still poor.

By owning my own house mortgage free and just paying rates and insurances it should be half the cost of rent that I pay at the moment.  And if I have a granny flat that's able to be rented out then it will provide an additional $100-$150 in money as well.

This xtra income would immediately enable me to double my spending on food and give me a little savings as well. At the moment I'm pretty much a one meal a day guy unless it's payday then I have a little bit more to eat.

So this is my ultimate goal and plan to own my own house with a granny flat mortgage free.  This would set me up for life as I basically have a guaranteed income from the Govt for the remainder of my life and I never have to work.  I just need a little extra income to feed myself and save money for new computer, 60" TV and push bike etc etc and could do these things at just $40 bucks a week saving which is a couple grand a year but with a granny flat I would probably have even more to save.

No one will ever employ me.  I haven't worked for 15 years now so this is why.  I have lots of time though. This time can be devoted to a social internet life.  I run a website and post on about 2-3 other large forums other than this one.  I

l play World of Warcraft but can only afford one more month of time at US $15 a month. This is all the money I have left over from earnings from the Diablo 3 Auction House when you could make money selling gear from that.  I made about $600 US over about 6 months.  I'm hoping my mum will pay for Warlords of Dranei the next World of Warcraft expansion due out in the next 6 months and like 3 months time that should be enough for me to of had enough.  I've been playing WOW since September 2007.  I stopped playing shortly after the cataclysm xpac and have only just recently a few months ago got Mists of Pandaria xpac when it was on sale for NZ $20 dollars.  I have got about 250 days played across all my characters.  I have a 90 Druid, 90 Mage, 90 Pally, 83 Hunter, 80 Rogue, 80 Death Knight, All ally, also, 90 Priest, 50 Monk, 44 Lock, all horde,  These char are all on the same server.  I am starting a shaman who is 19 at moment on a completely different server.  The shaman is going to be my free level 90 boost that you get with Warlords of Dranei.  I'm going to level him to level 60 so I get free profession boosts to 600.  I actually started to level the horde monk with this intention and then realised it would be a lot better to start a character on a new server so I could be rich on that server as well.  I am already quite rich on both horde and ally side on my current server.  Recently I have been trading in pets.  Made a little bit of gold out of them.  Best I did was trade two pets that cost me 2k for another pet that I sold and got 7600 gold after fees had gone out so 5600g profit.  Cool.  I did level the pet to 25 so that did make it worth a bit more but that didn't take long.

I talk about WOW because it has taken up alot of my time of the last few years.  It's what i've been doing.

I have been a member of this forum since August 2006 and have been a member to the other forums I post on for about the same time so that's around eight years.

Anyway thanks for reading.  I'm really after a house that someone who is extremely wealthy can buy me.  I'm using the internet to achieve this.  Again thanks for reading.

Leeda.




That's the end of that particular post.  Here is another shorter post I made to the same thread just before. Science rules.  THREAD:



My Suffering > (Greater Than) Price Of A House.

It's science based when I say I have earned a house through suffering.  This is science based.  Backed with real tangible evidence and scientific knowledge.

Those who say I should get out and work and get a job.  I have done the work.  It was condensed in suffering.   The most extreme.

So Science backs me when I say I need a house under certain conditions.  I have suffered for this house.  It has been earned.  I have earnt it.  It has been paid in full.  This is pure truth and science.

Unrefutable.



Where is my house?  PLS.




That's the end of both posts.  Another great wall of text with no images.  Enjoy reading.

Darcy Lee
Leeda


Sunday, November 17, 2013

Censorship.

The CENSORSHIP of Darcy Lee and his phone call where he predicted a war, suffering and made a stand with the greatest urgency 2 days before the Twin Tower Terrorist attacks in America USA on New Zealand Nationwide talkback radio, the CENSORSHIP is pure evil.

This phone call still exists to this very day hidden and locked away safe somewhere inside a Government Department.  It's like a Mona Lisa.  It has been classified secret.  

I tell you this phone call is an important piece of information and knowledge.  Information and knowledge.  It is being kept from public view.  

I predict that this phone call could reach over 20 000 000 million views easily or more as a YOUTUBE VIDEO.  I really don't know but I know that it will be popular.  

This is important.  CENSORSHIP is wrong.  YOU MUST HELP ME.  

My phone call is an important piece of history.  I deserve the GLORY or not but it's the Mona Lisa this phone call to a talkback radio station that I speak of.  It needs to be in public view.  

PHONE CALL ON YOUTUBE.  It still exists.  You don't destroy something precious, valuable, unique expensive etc.    OF COURSE IT EXISTS.  

THIS IS CENSORSHIP of the TRUTH KNOWLEDGE JOY HAPPINESS INFORMATION.  

The GOVT powers that be use CENSORSHIP against my voice and my property.  This phone call is my property to release onto YOUTUBE and the INTERNET in general for all to see.   

They CENSOR my free speech against constitutional law I believe.  It is more important that this phone call be released than for it to be kept a secret.  It will change history and many lives.  It is important.  

Please DEFEND my Right to Free Speech.

DARCY LEE
LEEDA.


Sunday, November 3, 2013

All Along The Watchtower Jimi Hendrix.



All Along The Watchtower - Jimi Hendrix.

I'm not totally sure if i'm going to listen to this much more but I like the intro and the line "All Along The Watchtower".  It reminds me of being on a watchtower and looking out for danger, least the word watchtower does.  I'm going to add this to the label amazing guitar as well as I find it unique enough and whatever else.  

So we is all on the lookout for danger to warn others.  I feel that because through my suffering I have something to say.  I don't really have anything to say but I should I guess.  I hope it will come to me. Matthew 10:19 At that time you will be given what to say.  I have suffered extremely and nobody knew.  So i'm telling you now.  There is extreme supreme suffering out there to be had.  Life hasn't yet swallowed up these things.  Some of you may be called to suffer in life like I was.  It's not pleasant.  I hope there is a purpose to it.  Surely it must make sense some how.

In suffering all is lost.  Suffering is the absence of joy.  I hope not to suffer any more.  1 Peter 4:1 because whoever suffers in the body is done with sin.  I hope that from my suffering I have learned not to sin as Christians call it.  I hope my suffering has perfected something or some power in me.  What is the purpose of suffering?  Nobody knows.  Suffering could be bad and therefore is an enemy.

Christ suffered.  If Jesus Christ didn't have miracle powers then we at least know that he suffered.  What is it about suffering?  I aim to live above and abolish all suffering in an age that accepts it as the norm.  Such is suffering that it needs to be finished and gone forever as soon as possible.  I believe that the level of suffering some have experienced already will somehow be enough to defeat suffering forever.  Something permanent has to be done.  Right now.  Not in a 1000 years but now.

Revelation 21:4 There will be no more death' or mourning or crying or pain.  So according to this scripture there will one day be no more pain.  I like the thought of this and it rings true to me that this will be the case and truth one day.  There will be no more pain.  Pain because of it's nature will be abolished and no more. Nobody likes pain.  If you like it it's not pain.  I cast my lot and my vote that all pain should be outlawed and abolished to the deepest darkest chains there are.  With the end of pain comes immortality.  There is nothing to fear in being rid of pain and suffering.  2 Corinthians 5:4 What is mortal may be swallowed up by life.  I think this means life will shine so bright that it will get rid of every bit of wrong and evil.

I could only wish God was real so that his bible would come to pass.  We at the moment live in the dark. At least I do.  God seems along way off from reality.  I have to believe there is enough power to war on suffering.  To defeat it.  I have a right, law and grace not to suffer anymore.  Suffering is wrong and it's here to be defeated and triumphed over.  No more suffering.  I have said enough for now.  War on suffering until immortality.  Let life shine brightest.

Anyway i'll leave you with Jimi Mr Hendrix.

Thursday, June 27, 2013

The Universe is Trying to Kill You. Out Smart the Universe.



This is like 30 seconds.  I think it would take a combined effort of the world to overcome death.  Each playing a member of the body.

1 Corinthians 12:14-26

14 Even so the body is not made up of one part but of many.

15 Now if the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” it would not for that reason stop being part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18 But in fact God has placed the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19 If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many parts, but one body.

21 The eye cannot say to the hand, “I don’t need you!” And the head cannot say to the feet, “I don’t need you!” 22 On the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23 and the parts that we think are less honorable we treat with special honor. And the parts that are unpresentable are treated with special modesty, 24 while our presentable parts need no special treatment. But God has put the body together, giving greater honor to the parts that lacked it, 25 so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 26 If one part suffers, every part suffers with it; if one part is honored, every part rejoices with it.

Something like that.  Everybody has something to do and plays a part.

It could be that one man or a team discover immortality and it's keep secret for a long time with people dying in the mean time.  I really don't believe they have it yet.  But they are trying very hard and everyday is a step closer.  They currently have a type of Manhattan project going I believe that will come up with some pretty neat stuff for humans to play with.  But probably it will be the domain of the rich.

They need to solve hunger.  That would power the world more.  There are many things that need to be solved.  It's good that people have to goto work for 40 hours a week.  The world is progressing.  You can see progression in the way prices drop on electronic goods like computers and TVs.  But I still say it's to slow.  Everyone needs to be involved not just the few.  People have skills that are yet to be discovered.


Wednesday, June 26, 2013

For People Who Use The Bible and Run a Blog or Website.

The Truth Shall Make You Free.
Today I found a neat application for my website.  It's just a bit of code you copy and paste in but what it does is display scripture from the bible when you hover the mouse over the link it creates, this is whenever  your quoting chapter and verse.  eg, John 8:36 If you hover your mouse over that link you should be able to see what the scripture is.  Here's another one.  John 8:32

Not that i'm a Christian but occasionally I've quoted scripture so it's nice to have it linked and that in the future I won't have to type out the whole scripture just the chapter and verse.  You could add this to your website if you want to also, goto reftagger.com  there's also a link when you hover over the scripture that will take you there as well.

Jesus died a horrible and painful death.  John 15:13  No Greater Love.  Not many men could endure such a death.  Jesus chose to lay down his life so that he could take it up again.  John 10:18  I don't know his reasons.  Was it because we were trapped in sin and he needed to die to set us free, to pay the price.

So how do we partake in the resurrection power, or did Jesus not come back.  What's your opinion.  Did Jesus preform miracles.  Why can't we imitate and copy and preform them, the same miracles Jesus did, today.  Jesus himself said we will do the same and even greater things than him. John 14:12

Christians talk a lot about faith.  They need to focus on the primary.  Which is love.  Faith is nothing without love.  If you introduce somebody to Christianity introduce them to love. 1 Corinthians 13:2

If for all else forsake faith and stay with love.  Let's see there's Love thy neighbor as yourself.  Mark 12:31  Love your enemies.  Matthew 5:44  And finally of course Love God.  Matthew 22:37

1 Peter 4:8
What are we supposed to hate?  Or how do we go about hating?  Are we to have any hate at all?  Christians also talk about forgiveness of sins a lot to, they use the word forgiveness and attempt to forgive when they should be trying to love.  But again it comes back to love.  1 Peter 4:8

So I prescribe more love as DR Lee.  (My full name is Darcy Robert Lee, that makes my initials D R Lee or Doctor Lee).

The word love needs to be used instead of forgiveness and faith.  You can drop those for all I care.

I don't know much about Christianity but I try to practice love.  It's hard when you have the sickness.  I make for some poor decisions.  Love has to grow and get power and use that power.

The world is lacking power.  The kingdom of heaven is a kingdom of power but also not just a matter of talk.  1 Corinthians 4:20  I think by Jesus coming to earth power was able to reach places, dark places, that lacked the most power of all, light out of darkness.  Jesus was a friend of sinners.  His disciples were power producers and containers and vessels and they produced power.  Each disciple of the 12 were unique and they operated as a unit or body all in all aiding each other to produce power.  Jesus put a seed in each disciple and this developed power for the use of Jesus.  Each disciple had a power producing foundation in him that Jesus put there.

One theory I have going is that power that we would use to live a higher more abundant love filled life is being siphoned off.  Enough to keep us in darkness and the power that's siphoned is being used to sustain others lives who live the high life.  Like devils and stuff, they suck our power.  Not that devils are real.  We lack power.

I love story's.

Evil has no way of generating it's own power, it's soul or battery so to speak has been destroyed or it never had one.  It's a parasite and lives by sucking the power out of the world which blinds and deafens men and women.

I don't have any solutions to this theory.  Maybe we could produce more power and use power more efficiently some how, more power than the devil can burn off.  Power can beget power.  So spending expending power wisely to generate more power could help.  Power needs to reach the right places to loosen bonds and set people free, freeing up more power which can then be invested.  Jesus invested power in us maybe.

Matthew 19:24
Technology could possibly help.  I don't know if tech is the way though.  Magic miraculous powers seem the way to me but that's probably not going to happen.  Christ had this going on.  But it's unconfirmed.  When Christians talk about believe again instead use the word love.  Also Christ talks about how hard it is for a rich man to enter heaven which is kind of money is tech way.  Matthew 19:24

We could maybe taint the power that's being siphoned with love so it drives the evil nuts and it can't efficiently use the power.  Like maybe lock the power with love of some kind somehow.  Set a standard for the power to be at a certain level before it's able to be consumed.  But how do you do that.  Silly talk really.

What is power.  Do humans have power.  I wonder.

Because of the darkness we live in and under, because our minds are blind we barely make enough power for our daily needs.  Little by little as time progresses people slowly become freer I hope and think.  Little by little, day by day we produce a little more power which gets reinvested in acquiring a little more freedom and are each day a little more free.


Here it is, off topic, but here it is.

I'll never be free.  Other humans enslave me.  And i'm supposed to love. I have very little or no power.  I also have very little or no love.  Slavery sucks.  I don't think God is real.  So there's really no one to save me.  No even believes me in the first standard.  Woe is me.  I'm tortured and mocked and punished. Woe is me.  Crying out to God helps no one.

Revelation 21:4
One day there will be no more Death, Mourning Crying or Pain.  Revelation 21:4

Knowledge of God would set the world on fire.  It would spread faster than the speed of light.  I believe the world lacks knowledge of Jesus and God.  Knowledge of God would spread faster than anything.  We lack this knowledge.

The Holy Ghost has unlimited power to give us.  But we can become immune to that power.  Markers and placers need to be set to moderate intake of power.  You can use unlimited power more efficiently.  One person with unlimited power can do greater things than another with unlimited power.  They are using it better.  The devil probably has unlimited power as well.  But it's how he's built his house to enable and take advantage of that power and produce and tap into the power in the first place.  Maybe the devils power has a limit and isn't unlimited like God's I dunno.  The Devil has kept pace with God for a while but eventually God should pull ahead and leave the Devil in his dust.  With each day the Devil grows weaker and God and us grow stronger.

Cool Story Bro.

Power should maybe be reserved for suffering and hard times if power can be reserved activate and use it then.  Bawahahah.  Your a loon.


Darcy Lee

Friday, May 24, 2013

My Life Information.

Hey all.  (I'm talking to myself no one reads this).

I been playing a little bit of Diablo 3.  I'm back up to $105 US dollars in my Paypal account but haven't had any sales for a couple nights now which is sad.  My inventory isn't the greatest I guess.  I am planning to expand with my brother lending me his D3 account so i'll be able to list twice as many items for sale, as most know there is a 10 item limit on the D3 Auction House.  This means i'll probably spend between $10 and $15 dollars on acquiring new stuff to sell for profit so will knock my Paypal balance a little.

My phone bill is in a little bit better shape so i'm going to try and save for a 24" monitor.  At the rate i'm achieving at the moment it's going to be a fair while.  Another thing is that the ads on this page have been doing alright.  I'm nearing the payout threshold for them but it's probably still a year away.  It seems that the ad's pay more now than they used to back in the day.  I'm also getting more traffic so that helps I guess.

I only actually got my new power supply on Monday after my old one died the bang.  One of the cables is to short so needs to be lengthened otherwise it seems fine so far.  Today I got my ram back that I send for warranty.  Again so far it seems ok and there have been no system crashes.  The original ram started to crash my machine after the first few hours.  It's been like 6-7 hours now without incident.  Yay.  Finally a stable computer.  I had the chance to buy an am2+ motherboard for $55 dollars but it sold before I finally decided I wanted it.  Very sad.  I have a quad core processor that would be faster than what I have at the moment it just needs a MB.

What else has been happening um.  I made a couple more pages on Indiegogo.com and gofundme.com , these are websites where with a page you ask for donations.  Some people have made a lot of money to start their project or fund whatever or maybe a sickness or something, some have made over 10k or even 100k.  I haven't gotten any donations but I did get one comment that's about it.  On my page I said that my suffering was probably in the top 5% of all time suffering.  I reckon it could be up there in about the top 2% of all time suffering without to much of a stretch.  I guess people just don't see my page buried in amongst all the others or they don't believe me.

What else has been happening er.  I had some new neighbours move into the flat next door to me.  O.  The landlords who had the house on the market because they were getting divorced - well the husband bought out the wife so I don't have to move.  This is great news.  I need stability.  I don't want to be moving around all the time and also there were about 5 open homes which was really annoying with people coming through all the time.  I would still love to own my own home one day with all the benefits that it comes with like cheaper living costs like rent.

Anyhow i'll leave it here for now.  I haven't been doing much at all as usual.    

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Government.

Doesn't it suck to be poor. Living in a horrible house. Eating terrible food. I talk about the same things all the time on this website. Pretty much not that interesting. My life is the same everyday. Stuck at home, doing the same thing.

Ah, I long for money. It gives you freedom. The governments of the world muwahaha, have conspired against me to make me poor. You know I worked hard. I'm not getting paid.

DOES anyone want to give me money? NO.

The governments of the w0rld muwahaha, owe me money. Yep they do. Pay me the money you owe me governments of the world.

I really want some money. I have earned it. I want to say that my September 11th phone call is my property and it deserves a website. I want a copy of the phone call. The governments of the world owe me money for this. Because they know why. I worked hard. Click the World Trade Center Link on the left to read the story but it's really badly written like what i'm writing now.

Governments of the world muwahaha give me some money now.

I can't afford to pay the rent no more. They ignore me and cause me heaps of pain. They have ignored me for like 8 years now. 8 years is a really long time. A really really long time.

Sorry I suck. Please donate to me. The governments of the world won't. Damn I suck. I R bored. No one believes anything I say.

Friday, September 7, 2007

Suffered.

I've run out of things to write about. My own house would make me much more comfortable. Thats all i'm really thinking about when I try and write something for this webpage. It seems now i'm just whining when I keep asking for donations for a house.

I don't like the word donations to much. For me it's like well i've suffered enough so a house should be almost automatic. The world doesn't see it that way. Here I am though writing with nothing to write about. I have a belief that the government owes me a house for me ringing a talkback radio station and declaring theres going to be a war 2 days before September 11. I believe. The government and actually everyone else doesn't see it this way though. No-ones being very nice. It's wrong to accuse anyone of deliberately trying to hurt me by denying me a house but i am being hurt.

I would just like to say about me that i'm really sick and would like a house because of this, it's what I need. A house for me is not just something. It's because i'm really sick that i'm asking for a house. It will be a place to rest and rehabilitate as much as possible and will remove certain worries that live in me. Security. Comfort. Warmth. Stability. Everything someone who is sick needs. Many more things than this a house will provide for me.

I encountered many bullies and much bullying during school. The adult world is no different. Some people take pleasure in others pain. I'm saying that there are people who attack and cause harm using others weaker than them in Hitler styles ways to every degree. There are bad people. Thats possibly what I will have to endure from this webpage from some people. There are bad people. It's a bad world. Nothing I can do except suffer.

I can't handle the truth but there are millions of starving people in the world needing food. This means if millions can't even get food then what chance or hope do I have of getting a house. This is kind of realistic. How can the world be this way. But it is. This is my webpage.

Government of New Zealand or anyone else - Can I please have a house because I have suffered extremely. Please Help.


Darcy Lee.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Schizophrenia.


I have Schizophrenia. Thats what alot of doctors have told me. My work here on this page represents that for most perhaps. I can see it myself. I'm on medication. I guess i'll write here to bring awareness to the condition. Basically it's a mental illness that can include things like hallucinations and voices.

Some people would have seen the movie A Beautiful Mind with Russel Crowe. This could be used perhaps as something of what it is like. For myself it's like everything is garbled. I generally feel very sick all the time and it's hard to work and do even simple things. Creativity is something that doesn't come easily. I really don't know what to say about schizophrenia other than if the doctors are correct in there diagnoses of me that it can be very painful. Actually one doctor said the pain was all in my mind, as in i'm not in real pain so possibly it's not painful at all i'm just imagining it. Would I know when I was in pain?

How about that. I have a very poor memory now. Thats one thing i've noticed. Looking back at my life I wasn't very smart as alot of the decisions i've made have lead to my illness. It's a poor life for me now compared to what I had. Everyones reality is different. For one person the world is an awesome place to the other it's really bad. My life has degraded substantially. Most of my health problems can be traced back to marijuana and tobacco. I would say I had problems before that though that made the decisions for me to start smoking.

Skitzophrenia. It's a bad uncurable thing that affects many people. I haven't said much about it really. It does make life bad though. I hope you live the life of the dream yourselfs. I can never experience what could of been. I hope that I can live to the age of 72 which will be the year 2050 so I can still experience alot and have at least something to say for what happened. I still smoke cigarettes so my lifespan is proberly only another 20 years though. I hope my imaginary suffering goes away oneday. I could be imagining anything.

From Darcy.